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[11 Dec 2009|07:14pm]
New Icon :3
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Thats it- [07 Dec 2009|11:45pm]
I'm so fucking done playing 'Hero', go find someone else that wants to make it all better, because I just don't fucking care any more.
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Well [02 Dec 2009|10:58pm]
I JUST got home after MFF :3
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Hopeless, something you wouldn't expect (from me) [07 Oct 2009|11:55pm]
For the first time, in a long time, I had those thoughts again. Its over whelming me, and I want to give into the desire to do that.

I kept me promise longer than I needed to, but why do I still feel bound by those words. Frustrating.

[03 Oct 2009|09:49pm]
I require snack food!

Also, my Dragonborn is hoooot WIP fer friends. http://home.graffiti.net/pave_sama/AdainDragonborn1.jpg
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[22 Aug 2009|12:42am]


Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test...

1- the Perfectionist

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose CZ - your Enneagram type is ONE (aka "The Reformer").



"I do everything the right way"


Perfectionists are realistic, conscientious, and principled.



They strive to live up to their high ideals.



How to Get Along with Me


• Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.


• Acknowledge my achievements.


• I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am.


• Tell me that you value my advice.


• Be fair and considerate, as I am.


• Apologize if you have been unthoughtful. It will help me to forgive.


• Gently encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight, but hear my worries first.



What I Like About Being a ONE


• being self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal


• working hard to make the world a better place


• having high standards and ethics; not compromising myself


• being reasonable, responsible, and dedicated in everything I do


• being able to put facts together, coming to good understandings, and figuring out wise solutions


• being the best I can be and bringing out the best in other people



What's Hard About Being a ONE


• being disappointed with myself or others when my expectations are not met


• feeling burdened by too much responsibility


• thinking that what I do is never good enough


• not being appreciated for what I do for people


• being upset because others aren't trying as hard as I am


• obsessing about what I did or what I should do


• being tense, anxious, and taking things too seriously



ONEs as Children Often


• criticize themselves in anticipation of criticism from others


• refrain from doing things that they think might not come out perfect


• focus on living up to the expectations of their parents and teachers


• are very responsible; may assume the role of parent


• hold back negative emotions ("good children aren't angry")



ONEs as Parents


• teach their children responsibility and strong moral values


• are consistent and fair


• discipline firmly



From http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/the-quick-amp-painless-enneagram-test
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[21 Aug 2009|07:02pm]
[ mood | blank ]

People met, and part, its our nature.
We Hope to cross paths again, but we don't go out of our way.
Its Despair that inspires us, to move.
To move in ways Hope doesn't allow us to.

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Oh fuck [10 Jul 2009|12:47am]
Fuck fuck fuck, MFF is creeping up faster than expected, and I still need to get tickets, and a room, shiiiiit.

So any of you freaks out there, that I know, and got a (decent) spot in a room up, lemme know D:
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Theme [30 Jun 2009|01:47am]
[ music | Changes - 3 Doors Down ]

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feels like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it

But I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
And I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes

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Different [10 Jun 2009|12:50pm]
Wanted to see, something you'd change in me...
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[05 Jun 2009|02:17am]
I totally jerked off to this song, really I'm not lying. http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=BgcDfmjVjVaSWy3kgbvk

Also working on a pic/short comic to go with it. *fapfapfap*
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[04 Jun 2009|11:50pm]
Just walked 2.8 miles, from work to home, and half the time I was expecting to get a random encounter, fuck you Square Enix.
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I'm Lucky [01 Jun 2009|01:42am]
http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=JovQb5OewVIc3ssaqzsG

And I'm also a total faggot for posting that.
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Wow [29 May 2009|10:35pm]
I biked 6 miles today. I feel accomplished.

Heard a new song during: http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=aTeiqx637X0UIRoT6Yco
Heard an song that's... not as new: http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=Zz9e7i0SYW1EeEq8wr0S

Maybe I should go eat something, and then go to the gym, I've been neglecting my upper body.
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Just so you know [18 May 2009|05:19pm]
I'm increasing bitter and jaded right now.

Just what-the-fuck-ever, get bent, I can't see any reason on why you did that. Congrats you're a total douche.

Have fun being on my shit list <3
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Blergs [08 May 2009|09:43pm]
Damn, today fucking sucks. Hello depression, where have you been for the past six months? Oh building up your army to rape me blergs.
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Older [06 May 2009|03:53am]
In 16 days I'll be 23. 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 23 not 22 23


Huh, I need to get my shit together, dead end life getted.
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The nothingness [15 Apr 2009|06:15pm]
In a round about way, I've found myself in a new mental following. Or maybe its the lack there of.

It seems that nothing, has become fun. It has crashed down rather suddenly, that nothing, is fulfilling. Nothing gives me pleasure now.

The lack there of, allows me to relish in the fact that something was there. Or maybe I'm over analyzing things at this point. Giving nothing an embodiment seems to take away from what it is.

For the past few years, my head has been flooded with thoughts, questions, answers, ideas, inspirations, but now. Now I've some how managed to transmute all of that into nothing. Its not to say my head is empty, because I would assume I'd have an impulsive urge to feel the spaces in between.

For now, everything is calm, everything has settled, everything is washed into a bliss of nothing.

What happens if, what if it doesn't, what if it can't, all seem so far off from here. Things pass through and leave no retro-active damage, no ripples, no worries.

An abstract feeling, that I can't explain, don't want to, don't care that I can't, and don't wish to understand. I doubt this will last, but in this moment in time, nothing matters.
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[25 Mar 2009|03:31pm]
[ mood | Tired ]

I just slept for 12 hours, and... I want more sleep.

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Oh yeah [12 Mar 2009|02:30pm]
Totally forgot to mention it, but I'm moving to San Jose in two weeks.

So long shit hole colorado.
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